Everything is frustrating. Everything about us lately. I mean why do I have to do everything. Why do I always have to be screaming to get your attention. But I'm not budging anymore. I'm so tired of feeling repressed in your life. Like put down. The last thing on your list. I can't get you to do anything for me anymore. I work my ass off to clean for you and get your life in order. I simply ask for a pepsi and you make me wait so long I get it myself. I only ask for you to do the laundry and it takes me to run out of underwear, which let me add I have at least 24 pair. So I've clearly been asking for a while. Your reasoning for not doing it was because 3-4 days ago you mixed up clean and dirty laundry. Well that's no reason. I'm sorry. But really?
You never have time for me. I've been trying and trying to get your attention. Through cleaning, Through asking, Through just about anything i can think of.
I'm sick. Sometimes I'm like if I left then I'd get your attention. But that would ruin everything. I just wanna become emotionless again. And float away.

These questions will get rather deep and personal, can you take it?
Is this suppose to make me sound like gangster or something?

Swear to me that you will answer them all honestly?
I swear.

What would you do if you found out one of your friends likes your crush?
I'd tell them to back the fuck up.

Will the last person you kissed be the next person you kiss?
I hope so.

Would you ever consider living with anyone on your top friends?
All of them. haha.

Ever kept arguing even after you realized you were wrong?
Yes. But It's to make a point.

If a girl kisses another girl are they a dirty hoe?
No. I kiss other girls. And if you think I'm a dirty hoe. I'll beat your face in..

Do you still talk to the person you last kissed?
Yes.

Why do you hate the person you hate the most?
Hes an asshole.

When you say you don't care do you mean it?
Usually.

When meeting someone new, are you afraid they won't like you?
Not really. I don't care.

Has anyone ever told you they loved you and meant it?
Yes.

Have you ever liked someone older than you?
Yes. Usually do.

Is heartbreak really as bad as people make it sound?
Worse.

Do you believe in love at first sight?
Yes.

Do you regret anything that you’ve done in your past?
I try not to regret. Just live..

Do you think you can love someone without trusting them?
Nah.

Would you go back in time if you were given the chance?
Maybe. But only to recover so I could last through things going on in life now. I want to see some people again.

Are you generally a happy person?
Never am.

Do you hate it when people smoke around you?
No.

What is more important, family or friends?
All my friends are my family. My "blood" family don't act much like family.

Would you rather choose truth or dare while playing "truth or dare"?
Depends on who I'm with. My friends I'm close with dare. People I don't know who are weird and crazy...truth.

Is there one person in your life that can always make you smile?
Yes.

Have you kissed anybody in the last 5 days?
Nah.

How's your heart lately?
Beating too hard. Like always.

Have you ever sent a text to the wrong person?
On Crystle's phone. Hahaha. Good times good times.

Would you rather sleep with someone else or alone?
Alone unless it's her. Cause I can relax around her.

Will this friday be a good one?
I don't know.

when was the last time you were called cute? by who?
Today by Ariana. hehe.

Describe your life story in one word?
Fucked.

Do you think age matters in relationships?
Only the maturity age.

When was the last time you got a haircut?
Too long. I need one. Badly.

Have you ever lived with a girlfriend/ boyfriend?
Nah.

Are you stubborn?
With things that I really want.

Did anything "cute" happen in the last week?
My girl didn't leave me?

Do you have a reason to smile right now?
Not really.

Is there anybody you wish you could spend time with right now?
Yes. Her. Chris. Tracy. Callie. Amy. Ray. 

Have you ever broken someone's heart?
They break mine.

What's something you really regret saying to someone?
I don't like to regret what I've said, because I may regret not saying it.

Is there something really bad that you've done, that only YOU know about?
Yes. aha.

Have you ever broken a really important promise?
I'm sure I have somewhere.

Have you ever copied someone else's homework?
Yes.

Could you go a whole year without cursing?
Ha no.

Have you cuddled with someone you weren't dating?
Yes. I cuddle a lot.

What was the last thing you bought?
Bedding for my chinchilla.

How are you doing today?
Like Shit.

Do you plan on lying?
I don't lie. I don't care too. It's stupid.

You're pregnant, your boyfriend or ex pushes you down stairs, how do you act?
Hm. I'd probably grab their face smash into my knee couple times, beat their stomach in, break their jaw. Then shove them down the stairs, drag them up and push them down the stairs again.
Psh. Taking my baby from me. HA!

Name one person you wish you could fix things with, and why haven’t you?
I wish I could fix everything with Ariana. I haven't because I can't. It really has nothing to do with me anymore. But I just wish I could fix it. I wish that I could help her fix things she needs to. Oh well.

What’s something you’re not looking forward to?
Maybe moving out.

When was the last time you were at the hospital?
Idk. Less than a year ago.

What are you listening to right now?
104.5

How do you feel right now?
Like Shit.

Why do you feel like that?
Cause people suck. Trying to change me. ahha.

Meet any new people this year?
Kinda. Yeah.

Have you ever slept on a couch with someone else?
Yes.

Is it possible to be single and happy?
Yes.

Do you like hugs?
From some people.

When was the last time you were told you were beautiful?
Huh. Months?

Could you go a day without eating?
Yes.

Last male to text you?
Hm. Chris.

Do you go to tanning beds?
No. I don't care enough to try that hard.

Could you go out in public looking like you do now?
Yes.

Do you think you have made anyone happy recently?
Honestly, I don't really care too much. No one is happy with me just being me. I have to be great. Or I have to be open. Or I have to be straight. I can never just be me. My angry, violent, insecure, psychotic, sensitive person who doesn't talk about there feelings.

Is there anyone you would do anything for?
Yes.

Do you enjoy late night phone conversations?
Is that meant to be sexual. Because I talk to people all the time at night. But yes I enjoy them.

Do you have a guy best friend?
Yes.

One thing that you're surprised about?
That Chris ate dog before?

What do you wish as of right now?
That I could be living with my love. Both of us done with school totally and being able to chill with our friends, be with each other for once, be able to live my life. Oh well maybe years down the road.

What are you annoyed at?
Everyone. Everything. Except my ice cream.

What are your plans for tomorrow?
School. Hopefully chill with someone.

When's the last time you laughed really hard and why?
Last night. Chris was talking about having a vaj and loving it.

Is there anything on your wrists right now?
Nope.

Is there anybody else in the room with you?
My kitty is.

Have you ever felt you were the happiest person in the world?
No. I've never been a happy person.

Last person you got yelled at by?
My dad.

This is about a broad amount of girls. Not all girls. I understand that they are all different.

Many people suggest that women are hard to understand. I do believe that in some areas they are. It is hard to understand there thought processes. But its not impossible. I typically understand my girls view points.

I know that one thing that people dating girls can't stand is that there are often previous things said are brought up. While I think they should be explained and talked about when said, the things are being brought up because they are either relevant or they made her upset and feel vulnerable. They are hardly ever brought up to annoy you or make you the bad guy, girls aren't out to crucify. Girls are just more sensitive and have good reason to be.

A big misunderstanding is that everything a girl thinks about is related to love, trust and all that other gooey shit. It's not true. A girl doesn't want to tell you what to get for her birthday, that's not because she wants you to show her you know her, or show how much you care. She want's to be surprised. Not for any other reason but that surprises are fun.

Girls just like guys don't like there life interrupted. They don't like the house being messy. Men complain that girls should just put the seat down but guys should just put the dishes in the sink. Women don't expect any more out of you than you expect out of them. In fact, in most relationships the girls do way more than guys do.

Girls are caring and loving by nature. Just because a girl wants to talk, hang out, or cuddle doesn't mean something is going on. It's natural for her to want to find comfort in you. If a girl says nothing is wrong, it doesn't mean that nothing is wrong. Girls can have just of a hard time talking about there feelings as guys. And lots of times it's how you approach the question what's wrong? that makes it sound like more of a chore than a true desire to understand.

If a girl lets you in her life that means you are really important to her. She wants to keep that love and that trust for each other a live. Most girls have trust issues the one sure way to loose a girl is to loose that love she has for her, is to make her feel likes its lost by carrying for about your own life than carrying about your life together.

Small things for each other have never been hard or negative. Try is out.